Tuesday, 18 September 2012

Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, I will try again tomorrow.

2012 has not been the year we expected. We had thought that this would be the first summer of Ray's retirement and we would have the freedom to do so many things that our working life had prevented us doing.

We gladly put our own lives on total hold and spent most of this year caring for my MIL and nursing her through what her doctors thought would be a terminal illness. Unfortunately as she regained her strength and her health improved it became impossible to satisfy the demands she placed on us. We know that a lot of this was caused by her frustration at no longer being mobile and other restraints that her illness had left her with.

Our mental and physical health started to decline with the unremitting work, stress, her constant dissatisfaction and our lack of sleep. It was with heavy hearts that we had to concede defeat and arrange for my MIL to go into a nursing home. Luckily she is at The Poldhu which is directly across the cove and is only a five minute walk away.

The Poldhu Nursing Home

It was a formerly a grand Edwardian Hotel and it is still run along the lines of a luxury hotel and we know that she is being cared for in great comfort. It is very easy for us to pop in two or three times a day and Poppy and Blue are welcome there as well. We do not feel guilty but are very disappointed that she made it impossible to remain with us.

I haven't been able to pick up a needle for several months but am pleased to say that as I have caught up on my sleep and my brain cleared from the stress I did start to sew again on Sunday afternoon. Hopefully I will have some progress to show you on Victoria Sampler's Alphabet series in a few days time.

As a treat to myself I have ordered Chatelaine Designs Fairy Flower Garden  which may be my next project. I love all the beads and sparkle.

My heart has been effected by the last few months and an ECG showed that my heart beat has changed and I am seeing a Cardiologist next week. My Doctor thinks that the chest pains I have had are probably caused by stress but it is possible I may have had a mild heart attack. I am sure that all will be OK.

Now I am free to have leisure time I hope to get my camera and walking boots back out and resume
life. I also have a lot of catching up with Thistle Threads "Cabinet of Curiosities".

Warm Wishes from Stitching By A Cornish Sea Shore Nicola xxx